Looking in Edinburgh, Scotland

Hi, I am a 50 YO male (look younger am told) who stills masturbates twice a day. I get really turned on by circle jerks and my fantasy is getting into a room with like minded people. Watch some porn. Slowly get into it. Watch each other as much as the porn. Start wanking with your clothes still on. Watching each other and get really aroused. Then as one by one is coming, shoot myself. I am married but my wife knows that I have a very high sex drive. Any like minded people? I cannot accommodate. In these times of Covid-19 I think it would be nice to meet and watch each other from a safe distance.